so I just read SOUL TO SEOUL by Kim Jea Eun and i really dont know how to feel it was the most amazing manga I have ever read (my opinion) and I suggest everyone read it but I just want to tell you iin advance it doesnt have a happy ending.

I got to the end of the series and hoped for something that would only happen in a book and for the first time in a book Ive read something happened like what would happen in real life and I was almost angry with the author but then I got a reality check and even though I guess I knew it deep down, all the books i read kinda had warped my thoughts and made me forget it.

killers are not happy people
killers familys are not safe
killers always have to be paranoid
killers are so desensitised they do not know right from wrong
killers have no one they can trust
and unlike all the anime i watch suggest killers and theifs are not one big happy street family that are not all charismatic people that can get out of anything most of them are just poor people that have to do anything to live and there poor kids that have to do the same

I am poor in every sense of the word and have been in even worse places than I am now but I have a mother that loves me and kept me from having to do anything the people in this book had to but when I read this I realize that when me and my mom got into a place of our own and started getting those little things that make you feel comfortable (like a computer) that I am starting to forget what life use to be like and how hard it use to be and even though its hard now Its not the same, I am not being frivolous like I was in the beganing which is why it becomes harder and harder to pay the bills.

I know this is long but what I'm trying to say is Dont forget the hard times and dont let a book blur the line between reality and fiction.